Super-Secret Post Originally written at the beginning of month 19 This cycle, we got an anvil. At this stage, we are becoming more reserved with the detail we share. You’ll hear some of the consequences of the diagnosis, but if we omit details, it’s probably on purpose. We have a non-treatable condition that reduces our chances of conceiving a child naturally to “it could happen, maybe, with enough time.” This condition often responds to the more-routine interventions offered by fertility […]
Super-Secret Post Originally written during month 18 People accustomed to my coping will know it’s rude to tell me there’s a reason for our struggle. Obviously I’d prefer to believe there isn’t a reason I’m meant to not have kids. But if there’s no reason for this, is there a reason for anything? It feels like there’s a dichotomy — either there’s no reason for anything (and that sucks in its own way) or there’s a reason that I don’t […]
Note: Since these posts were written so far in the past (generally at least 3 calendar months), my mental state is usually very different by the time you read them. So don’t worry too much about my bad moods. I have a few people in an inner circle who get everything in real-time and are being super-awesome at keeping me sane (props to you!). Super-Secret Post Originally written late in month 17 We’re headed to the specialist tomorrow for our […]
Super-Secret Post Originally written month 16 (beginning, middle, and end) Here beginnith the testing.
Super-Secret Post Originally written mid-month-15 At the beginning of “month 14” we were officially past 13 cycles of trying and justified in seeking help. However, our first attempt for a referral had some annoying hiccups.
Super-Secret Post Originally written at the end of month 13 Final exams, our apartment being robbed, and Christmas kind of took my mind off of things this cycle. We’re starting to lose steam for the effort we can put in to trying…
Super-Secret Post Originally written at the end of month 12 Just one cycle to go until we get* to go to the doctor. We’ll be out of town so by the time we’re able to see someone we’ll be past the point of any effectiveness in month 14. I’m starting to realize what a disaster my over-organized temperament will wreak on fertility treatments.
Super-Secret Post Originally written at the end of month 11 I didn’t have many recorded thoughts. My schoolwork would be doing an amazing job of taking my mind off of things except that it means I’m surrounded by young children constantly.
Super-Secret Post Originally written end of months 9 and 10 I had some personal stuff get in the way of posting; I had meant to get back into my schedule of updating you at the 3-month mark at the beginning of December to mark 3 months after our summer break. The good news is that I have one term of my Early Childhood Education program completed; the bad news is that the first two cycles after our break were still […]
There’s no news until next month so here’s an itty-bitty post of two quotes from the spring I never got around to sharing. A one-liner from the end of Month 8: Cramps: Adding injury to insult. A little dialogue from right after we started the three-month break. Hubby, mocking The Talk: “Sometimes, when a man and a woman love each other very much -” Me: “- it’s not enough.”