Super-Secret Post Recap of the end of Month 26, composed near the present since I had no contemporary notes We were pretty excited about our consultation in Waterloo. We had been referred before we left Vancouver so we had an appointment waiting for us within three weeks of our arrival. With 4 cycles between then and my work placement, I figured there’d be no problem getting our 2-3 bank-up IVF cycles done by March (the idea being that we wouldn’t […]
In the ongoing saga of collecting information and basically charting my innards, our new training fellow thought we might benefit from a 3D ultrasound. “Have you ever seen those 3D ultrasound pictures on Facebook?” “Sure. They’re cute, but I’m a little freaked by the fact that no doctors have OKed them as safe for entertainment purposes. But since there isn’t anything in there to hurt, knock yourself out.” “Yeah. This is pretty much the same, except you won’t want to […]
Super-Secret Post Originally written throughout month 20
Super-Secret Post Originally written at the beginning of month 19 This cycle, we got an anvil. At this stage, we are becoming more reserved with the detail we share. You’ll hear some of the consequences of the diagnosis, but if we omit details, it’s probably on purpose. We have a non-treatable condition that reduces our chances of conceiving a child naturally to “it could happen, maybe, with enough time.” This condition often responds to the more-routine interventions offered by fertility […]
Retyping thoughts when it’s time to post them as “Super-Secret Posts” makes me realize how important support group has been. It fixed the being-alone part and that cushions everything. It also helps me count the things I’m lucky for… at least I can take appointments (or run in for procedures) any time since I study from home. Then again, the women with careers have something else to give them meaning for now. Being a mother was supposed to be my […]
Note: Since these posts were written so far in the past (generally at least 3 calendar months), my mental state is usually very different by the time you read them. So don’t worry too much about my bad moods. I have a few people in an inner circle who get everything in real-time and are being super-awesome at keeping me sane (props to you!). Super-Secret Post Originally written late in month 17 We’re headed to the specialist tomorrow for our […]
Super-Secret Post Originally written month 16 (beginning, middle, and end) Here beginnith the testing.
Super-Secret Post Originally written mid-month-15 At the beginning of “month 14” we were officially past 13 cycles of trying and justified in seeking help. However, our first attempt for a referral had some annoying hiccups.