The December Non-News

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Originally written at the end of month 13

Final exams, our apartment being robbed, and Christmas kind of took my mind off of things this cycle. We’re starting to lose steam for the effort we can put in to trying…  (more…)

The November Non-News

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Originally written at the end of month 12

Just one cycle to go until we get* to go to the doctor. We’ll be out of town so by the time we’re able to see someone we’ll be past the point of any effectiveness in month 14.

I’m starting to realize what a disaster my over-organized temperament will wreak on fertility treatments. (more…)

The October/November Non-News

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Originally written at the end of month 11

I didn’t have many recorded thoughts. My schoolwork would be doing an amazing job of taking my mind off of things except that it means I’m surrounded by young children constantly.

Catching Up On Non-News

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Originally written end of months 9 and 10

I had some personal stuff get in the way of posting; I had meant to get back into my schedule of updating you at the 3-month mark at the beginning of December to mark 3 months after our summer break.

The good news is that I have one term of my Early Childhood Education program completed; the bad news is that the first two cycles after our break were still a bust.

After month 9: I didn’t record any thoughts at the time; I was also really busy starting school so it was easy to keep my mind off of it. However, I had really bought into the popular theory that my stress was causing all of our problems, so quitting my job, taking a week’s vacation followed by 5 free days around the house felt like a cure. I guess it wasn’t magic.

After month 10: It’s handy that I had already lost my faith. Such randomness for no reason is the kind of thing that breaks me – I never bought the “bigger plan” story. There’s just my plan, someone else’s plan that works out perfectly, and another person who gets what I want as the thing that ruins their plan (reconciliation with anyone who got pregnant by accident seems unlikely in my current state of mind).

A snack-sized post while you’re waiting

There’s no news until next month so here’s an itty-bitty post of two quotes from the spring I never got around to sharing.

A one-liner from the end of Month 8:
Cramps: Adding injury to insult.

A little dialogue from right after we started the three-month break.
Hubby, mocking The Talk: “Sometimes, when a man and a woman love each other very much -”
Me: “- it’s not enough.”

The May, June, July, and August Non-News

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Originally written end-of-month-#8

Life has been overhauled and our plan got a bit changed as a result. (more…)

Deciding to Test Everything

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Originally written end-of-month-#7

So I’ve been tracking ovulation and even decided to take pregnancy tests when my period doesn’t come early.


No News Is Still No News

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Originally written at the end of month #7

Whoops – been really busy lately and lost track of the updates. Sorry about that.

The April/May “month” was a bust as well. (more…)

Date-Math Fail

A few cycles back, I realized something while counting which blew my mind with just how terrible I am at date math.


Blog Backfire

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Originally written part-way through month #7

This announcing-that-we-are-trying thing has backfired so totally.

The idea was that, while in the “trying” stage, if I suddenly stopped drinking, bouldering, hot tubbing, etc I would just give everyone the wrong idea and it would be so exhausting to refute everyone in the face of all the “evidence”.

And it was about giving out the MAXIMUM amount of information, not the minimum.

Instead I get far more attention instead of less. I have a headache, am sad, have to pee, look busty? “OMG preggers!!” I go skiing, top roping, out to the bar but don’t immediately mention I didn’t drink anything? “Guess you’re not pregnant.” (more…)