Super-Secret Post Originally written at the end of month #7 Whoops – been really busy lately and lost track of the updates. Sorry about that. The April/May “month” was a bust as well.
A few cycles back, I realized something while counting which blew my mind with just how terrible I am at date math.
Super-Secret Post Originally written part-way through month #7 This announcing-that-we-are-trying thing has backfired so totally. The idea was that, while in the “trying” stage, if I suddenly stopped drinking, bouldering, hot tubbing, etc I would just give everyone the wrong idea and it would be so exhausting to refute everyone in the face of all the “evidence”. And it was about giving out the MAXIMUM amount of information, not the minimum. Instead I get far more attention instead of less. […]
Super-Secret Post Originally written end-of-month-#6 It’s a testament to my habit forming that I’ve stopped assuming in going to be pregnant soon. I vaguely know that the fall might have a pregnancy but I’m forgetting that it might throw my Christmas into disarray, and when I make plans for the next couple months I assume trying will be a part of them. This is now business as usual.
Super-Secret Post Originally written at the beginning of Month 6 (Mid-March) I spent a lot of time regrouping after my “take charge” plan failed so flat last round and decided to try the “not trying” thing. Ridiculous, right? I know it’s not supposed to be a strategy, sort of, you know, by definition, but I’ll take a swing at it anyway.
Super-secret Post Originally written end-of-month-#5 March: no. Didn’t have much time to dwell on it since I was busy having a great time back where I went to school. Did drink myself slightly sick and accidentally send my confidant under the table. The only other thing to mention is that the month labels start to fail soon, so the next “month” is March/April. Turns out a month is not 26 days.
Super-secret Post Originally written beginning-of-month-#5 (“March”)) During March, I am super-paranoid about factors under my control.
Super-secret Post Written mid- and end-of-February February is filled with ugly and nothing to show for it.
Super-Secret Post Originally written end of January I’m someone who has been involving, um, everyone in this process, but yesterday, today, and tomorrow morning, I’m all alone. After I thought I had a No for January, suddenly it looked like Not a No. My period is now 4 days late. It’s never even been 3 days late before. But, after already reporting No to my husband and The One Friend Who Is In The Loop, I don’t want to retract […]
Super-Secret Post Originally composed end-of-January Well, no April Fools psych for us this year. (Back at school I used to pull big whoppers every year, so I was thinking if we could announce it could be late on the 31st, which would show up as early on the 1st for my friends who are three time zones ahead. They wouldn’t be sure if I were kidding and I wouldn’t even be posting on April 1. But, it wasn’t meant to […]